Monday, 31 December 2012

June and Reconnection

It is one thing giving someone a ' treatment ' and getting feedback, but now I really wanted to feel
what it was like to be on the receiving side of the table. So I did  some research, found Elsa Lee
(, and made an appointment with her in Galway. Elsa is warm and welcoming
and connects beautifully. I liked her immediately and was so glad I had come to her for my session.
Here are my ' notes ' after my treatment.

My first session with Elsa.

Calm very strong  registers in my eyes.
Very warm energy around my heart.
Later strong registers in my right arm.
Then very strong registers all over my whole body.
Very strong breathing and a sensation that reminded me of giving birth.
Then very calm again.
Later it felt as if Elsa was using electrodes on my body and I heard a crackling sound like static electricity.
There was a bubbling or fizzing sensation all over my body.

I was completely absorbed during the session and sorry when it ended. My body felt  alive and tingling for the rest of the day similar to how it would feel after a really good Shiatsu massage.

What an amazing session! I wanted more and very quickly decided to have ' Reconnection' with Elsa

Two weeks later I returned to Galway to be Reconnected.

Back to Galway and  '' The Reconnection '' with Elsa.
I had my reconnection two weeks ago ,  so glad I went ahead and did it . It takes two sessions to
 be reconnected and both were equally interesting, again I had intense feelings and responses to the
' Energy' almost as if I was being straightened out !
 I don't want to go in to all the details but it was intense and I feel it has made some big internal shifts in my being. Life seems to be supporting my efforts in everything related to Reconnection. As soon as I decided to work with the energy Joan ( one of my taichi students ) arrived with a fabulous massage table ! It just feels like something bigger than me is helping all the way.

What an amazing time and journey this last year must be one of the most interesting and enriching of my life so far.

Highlights from March

We had our first outdoor pushing hands in March.

 "Stillness Speaks"

Silence is helpful, but you don't need it in order to find stillness. Even when there is noise, you can be aware of the stillness underneath the noise, of the space in which the noise arises. That is the inner space of pure awareness, consciousness itself.

You can become aware of awareness as the background to all your sense perceptions, all your thinking. Becoming aware of awareness is the arising of inner stillness.

* * * * *

Pay attention to the gap -- the gap between two thoughts, the brief, silent space between words in a conversation, between the notes of a piano or flute, or the gap between the in-breath and the out-breath.

When you pay attention to those gaps, awareness of 'something' becomes -- just awareness. The formless dimension of pure consciousness arises from within you and replaces identification with form.

* * * * *

True intelligence operates silently. Stillness is where creativity and solutions to problems are found.

* * * * *

Is stillness just the absence of noise and content? No, it is intelligence itself - the underlying consciousness out of which every form is born. And how could that be separate from who you are?

The form that you think you are came out of that and is being sustained by it.

It is the essence of all galaxies and blades of grass; of all flowers, trees, birds, and all other forms.

* * * * *

Stillness is the only thing in this world that has no form. But then, it is not really a thing, and it is not of this world.

* * * * *

[...] What is wisdom and where is it to be found? Wisdom comes with the ability to be still. Just look and just listen. No more is needed. Being still, looking, and listening activates the non-conceptual intelligence within you. Let stillness direct your words and actions.

--Eckhart Tolle,

Sunday, 30 December 2012

I'm  having a little (or maybe it will turn out to be long ) review of my year as seen through the blog.
What an amazing year this has been.  The clip below was taken at our T'ai Chi  practice in Mallow Library in January.

Unlocking a New Sphere of Reality

Being attentive unlocks a sphere of reality that no one suspects. If, for instance, I walked along a path without being attentive, completely immersed in myself, I did not even know whether trees grew along the way, nor how tall they were, or whether they had leaves. When I awakened my attention, however, every tree immediately came to me. This must be taken quite literally. Every single tree projected its form, its weight, its movement—even if it was almost motionless—in my direction. I could indicate its trunk, and the place where its first branches started, even when several feet away. By and by something else became clear to me, and this can never be found in books. The world exerts pressure on us from the distance.

The seeing commit a strange error. They believe that we know the world only through our eyes. For my part, I discovered that the universe consists of pressure, that every object and every living being reveals itself to us at first by a kind of quiet yet unmistakable pressure that indicates its intention and its form. I even experienced the following wonderful fact: A voice, the voice of a person, permits him to appear in a picture. When the voice of a man reaches me, I immediately perceive his figure, his rhythm, and most of his intentions. Even stones are capable of weighing on us from a distance. So are the outlines of distant mountains, and the sudden depression of a lake at the bottom of a valley.

This correspondence is so exact that when I walked arm in arm with a friend along the paths of the Alps, I knew the landscape and could sometimes describe it with surprising clarity. Sometimes; yes, only sometimes. I could do it when I summoned all my attention. Permit me to say without reservation that if all people were attentive, if they would undertake to be attentive every moment of their lives, they would discover the world anew. They would suddenly see that the world is entirely different from what they had believed it to be.

-Jacques Lusseyran

I posted this in January and think it is well worth reading again.
I am really loving this review and it is reminding  me of what a truly wonderful year it has been.

Friday, 28 December 2012


My brother  ( a catholic priest who lives in Fiji ) is home with us for Christmas and brought me  He AND I.
I love some of the 'dialogues' .

" November 27- Holy hour.
I was returning from a tea at the home of Count S

" Now forget the world and look at Me. I was pleased that you spoke
of the prisoners and their fruitful solitude that brought them nearer to
God. Did you notice how the conversation remained at a higher level
right to the end ? In this you were My instrument. Be so again, often.
 You see , I have few instruments on the earth. . .  Ask the spirit to
 guide your mind . Don't talk out of yourself, but out of Me. Speak
in My place.
My little girl , do you know when you speak like Me ?
When you put goodness and charm in your words. When you
touch hearts. When you give a gracious answer to an acid remark.
When you give excuses for someone. When you serve. When you
give. When you calm an angry person. When you comfort. When
you keep an even temper in all circumstances. When you remain
 humble without seeking to shine. When you are grateful for the
kindness of others. When you are generous . Who was more
 generous than I ? All this is yours. You are part of My mystical
body. "

Gabrielle Bossis (1874-1950) was a Catholic Mystic and layperson who lived in France in the 20th century.
On very rare occasions in her early life, Gabrielle had been surprised by a Mysterious Voice, which she heard and felt with awe, and sometimes anxious questionings, which she perceived to be the Voice of Christ. It was only at the age of 62, however, that this touching dialogue with the "Inner Voice" began in earnest, continuing (at least in her notes) until two weeks before her death on June 9, 1950.

Thursday, 27 December 2012

Candles and Changes

       When I was growing up candles were for birthday cakes, church
        ceremonies, and for the window, to be lighting there on Christmas
        Eve and the following days to show that the holy family  " Mary ,
        Joseph, and baby Jesus " were welcome in the house.
        Nobody would think of lighting a candle to create an atmosphere
       or to enhance a space .
       I think that  the change in our attitude to candles is also reflected
       in our new approach to spirituality. Again when I was growing up,
       nobody I knew spoke about meditation,  this was something
       reserved for monks, nuns and yogis in India. It certainly wasn't
       available to the general public. It was tor a privileged few.
       How lucky are we to live in this age when knowledge which
       was secret for so long has become available to us all.  No
       longer do we need to take vows or travel to Tibet we can learn
       and practice just where we are.
       This I think must be one of the greatest advances of our lifetime.
       The opportunity to learn about and to train one's consciousness.


Monday, 24 December 2012

         Here is Suzie waiting for everyone to arrive and  " Oming " to begin.
         Sadhguru explained how to intone Om and then we " Omed " along
        with him and 10,000 of the meditators who were gathered there
        with him.
        I loved the peace that settled around us before,  during, and after
        the chanting.  It felt good to be part of such an uplifting event.
         It seems to have set a tone of ease and relaxation to my Christmas
        this year. No fussing just a sense that the most important aspect of
        the this special ' Feast  Day ' is the welcome we have for
         each other.
        The Namaste to everyone we meet. Finding the peace inside and
        hopefully to helping to spread it outside.
        With Love to all for Christmas.

Tuesday, 18 December 2012

1 Billion Oms

          What would happen if a Billion people
       were all unified in meditation, prayer, and celebration
        through a single sound vibration at the same time?
       My dear friend Deb pointed out to me (thankfully) 
       that the event is happening at 6.30 am Greenwich
       mean time . So our gathering will be at 6 am not 7am.
       Click   here   for more information including time zones.
       I hope You join in with all us us who want to make the 
       world vibrate with Om.

Sunday, 16 December 2012

Ballyhigue strand after the funeral

        His brother read the poem I wept with it's beauty and truth.

                                        Love's Philosophy

                            The fountains mingle with the river,

                            And the rivers with the ocean;

                           The winds of heaven mix forever

                           With a sweet emotion;

                           Nothing in the world is single;

                           All things by a law divine

                           In another's being mingle--

                           Why not I with thine?

                           See, the mountains kiss high heaven,

                           And the waves clasp one another;

                          No sister flower could be forgiven

                          If it disdained its brother;

                          And the sunlight clasps the earth,

                          And the moonbeams kiss the sea;--

                          What are all these kissings worth,

                          If thou kiss not me?

                                          Percy Bysshe Shelley

              The view of the ocean called.

                Birds were feeding by the waters edge.

 Heart overflowed with love and gratitude.

               Stood in wonder at this beauty.

    Spirit filled I turned for home.

 Knowing I was not alone. 

Friday, 14 December 2012

Thanks to John Connell for sending me this really interesting link.
Pushing Hands link sent by John Connell

Counting down  to the 1 Billion Oms  what an opportunity to
connect with like minded, hearted, ans spirited people all around
our world. Do join in and experience  a few moments when we
are all focusing on  our true nature. We are not separate you and I
are always connected , intimately bound ,but in our busy lives we
forget to pay attention to this most important aspect of our nature.

1 Billion Oms

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

                           The important thing is not to think much

                            but to love much, and to do that which

                            best stirs you to love.

                                           St Teresa of Avila

Monday, 10 December 2012

A mystical experience is not any more unique than a modern experiment in physics. On the other hand, it is not less sophisticate, either . . . The complexity and efficiency  of  the physicist's technical apparatus is matched, if not surpassed, by that of the mystic's consciousness . . . A page from a journal of modern experimental physics will be as mysterious to the uninitiated as a Tibetan mandala. Both are records of inquiries into the nature of the universe.

Keep  I Billion Oms   in mind.

Sunday, 9 December 2012

A Pusshing Hands gathering for Christmas

                  We gathered at my place to push hands.

     To investigate uprooting .

       To catch up with ' Taichiers ' who had moved far away.

   Of course Suzie was part of it all.


            We had fun.


            And more fun.

        Some quiet moments.

All in all a great morning.

Keeping in mind  I Billion Oms  on December 22'nd  I Billion Oms

Friday, 7 December 2012


Resonance is the response of a body to vibrations of it's own natural frequency.
Bridges have collapsed when soldiers marching in step across them
 caused the bridge to vibrate at it's own natural frequency.
Resonance is also the reason a glass shatters when a singer holds a note
at the natural frequency of the glass.
Those examples are on the ' down ' side of resonance.
On the ' up ' side there is the recorded evidence of the positive effects
of meditation  ( when we meditate we vibrate at a particular frequency).
Studies carried out when large groups ( thousands) gathered to meditate,
show that crime rates and hospital admissions dropped dramatically in
 those cities while the groups meditated.
Can You Imagine what would happen if 1 Billion of us meditate on Om
simultaneously ? I am so excited by the possibilities for us and our planet
when we decide to combine our positive intentions to raise our vibrations
to Love.

Here is the link to Sadhaury Jaggi Vasudev  page on the Om meditation.  
 1 Billion Oms
We here are planning to join with him think about it . This amazing
opportunity to really do something wonderful for our whole planet.

Wednesday, 5 December 2012

1 Billion Oms

I'm really excited by the 1 Billion Om event  I came across it on The Shift Network Website. Click on 1 Billion Oms below for more information. I am planning to organize an event here in Mallow and am hoping that You may be inspired too and organize an event in your owm area and help Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev to reach the 1 billion.
Do let me know if you like the idea and also if You would like to join us here or from where ever You live.

I One Billion Om's Globally Synchronized Meditation, an unprecedented effort to unite us all to meditate, pray, and "Om" at the exact same time for three minutes (simultaneously around the world) on December 22nd. Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev, the renowned yogi, mystic, visionary, and humanitarian, will provide the hosting and leadership role for the event. A spokesperson for the effort said, "Our goal and intention is to have one billion people chanting Om simultaneously. By aiming for a billion people, we are reaching out to enough people to have a massive impact on planetary consciousness. It is our intention to continue these 'global meditation days' every year until the one billion goal is reached."

1 Billion Oms

Tuesday, 4 December 2012

Monday, 3 December 2012

Can Awe Buy You More Time and Happiness? --by Stacey Kennelly

More Heartwork from Our Workshop

Always plugged in and constantly juggling tasks at work and at home, many of us feel like there aren’t enough hours in the day to do all the things we need to do.
But wouldn’t it be awesome to feel like you had more time? In fact, a new study suggests that experiencing awe—which psychologists define as the feeling we get when we come across something so strikingly vast in number, scope, or complexity that it alters the way we understand the world—could help us do just that. What’s more, awe might make us more generous with how we spend our time and improve our overall well-being.
In one part of the study, researchers induced feelings of awe in participants by showing them video clips of people encountering tremendous things like waterfalls and whales; among members of a comparison group, they induced by showing them video clips of people surrounded by confetti in a joyful parade.
The results, published by Psychological Science, show that members of the awed group were more likely to report feeling like they had more time than those who felt happiness.

Awe-eliciting experiences might offer one effective solution to the feelings of time starvation that plague so many people in modern life,” write the researchers, who were based at the Stanford University Graduate School of Business and the University of Minnesota’s Carlson School of Management.
This led the researchers to predict that people who experience awe would be less likely to feel impatient—since people feel impatient when they think they’re short on time—and would be more willing to devote time to activities like volunteering.
To test this hypothesis, they instructed participants to write stories about events in their lives. One group was prompted to write about an experience that was vast and altered their perceptions of the world, while the other group was told to write about a time when they felt contentment or joy. Then, all participants completed a survey assessing their impatience and willingness to lend time to others.
As the researchers predicted, people who felt awe were less likely to feel impatient and more likely to volunteer their time than study participants who felt happiness.
However, awe did not make people more likely to donate money, suggesting that awe does not make people more generous in general. Instead, it was the sense that they had more time to spend that seems to have made participants more willing to lend a hand.
In another experiment, the researchers induced awe in some people—by having them read a story about ascending the Eiffel Tower and getting a high-up view of Paris—but not others. Afterwards, they found that members of the awe group reported feeling more satisfied with their lives than the other group. Also, when given a choice between material goods and positive experiences—such as a watch vs. tickets to a Broadway show—the awe group was more likely than the other group to choose the positive experiences.
Prior research has found that positive experiences are more likely than material objects to bring us happiness. After analyzing their data, the researchers conclude that the awe group’s higher life satisfaction and preference for experiences over objects could be explained by the fact that they felt like they had more time on their hands.
Melanie Rudd, the lead author of the study and a PhD candidate in marketing at Stanford University, says the results show how something as subtle as our perception of time can have a big influence on our lives.
“It impacts our willingness to volunteer to help other people and even our well-being,” she says. “The idea that an emotion can alleviate this problem is an incredible idea to me.”
She suggests that people evoke more feelings of awe in their lives by exposing themselves to nature, art, and music.
“Put yourself in situations where you’re experiencing new things,” she says

Sunday, 2 December 2012

Healing Heart Work from Blackrock

We worked on healing our lives through heart connections with sitting exercises and with John Kells' amazing Figure 8 heart exercises. Wonderful energy and love filled day.

Friday, 30 November 2012

Tomorrow's Workshop in Blackeock

Tomorrow's workshop is on in Blackrock Community Centre.
For people who are not familiar with Blackrock  check Convent Road
Cork on Google Maps.
You will see The Pier Head Inn at the entrance to Convent  Ave .
 The centre is about 100 metresup from the Pier Head Inn on the
 right hand side.
( Sorry I haven't managed to upload the actual map. )
 But please give me a call if you have any trouble finding us.
Looking forward to a fabulous day.

Investigating Crossing Hands with Michael and Brendan

Thursday, 29 November 2012

The Guest House

                             This being human is a guest house.
                             Every morning a new arrival.

                              A joy, a depression, a meanness,
                              some momentary awareness comes
                              as an unexpected visitor.

                              Welcome and entertain them all!
                              Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
                              who violently sweep your house
                              empty of its furniture,
                              still, treat each guest honourably.
                              He may be clearing you out
                              for some new delight.

                              The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
                              meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.

                              Be grateful for whatever comes.
                              because each has been sent
                              as a guide from beyond.

                                        -- Jelaluddin Rumi,
                                       translation by Coleman Barks


Monday, 26 November 2012

God is Singing

       God is singing God is dancing God is singing in these woods to me.

                       I hear his laughter in the rushing stream.


                      Even Suzie stops to listen.

                To feel the magic in this place.

                             Look , Someone  else has felt this magic

                 Has felt His presence in every stone.

Sunday, 25 November 2012

ARC House Christmas Tree

Meadows and Byrne have done a wonderful job of decorating ARC House. When I was there yesterday visitors were thrilled with all the novel ways of  arranging  candles , setting table, and generally adding sparkle to ones house and life. 

So don't miss out come along today between 11am and 4 pm.  Be shown around , have some delicious refreshments meet some of the ARC House staff and volunteers who will be delighted to tell you all about the great work happening every week  in ARC House.

Have a fabulous day.

Monday, 19 November 2012


Discover Christmas at Cork ARC Cancer Support House this year.   Creative and inspirational, this year Meadows and Byrne will decorate ARC House and give you a spring board of ideas for the season ahead.  Show your support for Cork ARC and deck your halls with sparkle and style from our Christmas House.  Don’t miss out, join us at 5, O’Donovan Rossa Road, Cork on  Saturday 24th and Sunday 25th November,  between 11am and 4pm.  Donation on entry, refreshments provided.  For enquiries, please call Hilary on 021 4276688.

Here below is the Mini Form for the Monday morning class.

Sunday, 18 November 2012

The journey is a simple one. It requires a certain vision of its importance, a certain humility to begin, and a certain fidelity and courage to persevere - the willingness above all, to be led into fullness. These are all essentially  human qualities , the qualities needed for any fruitful contact with life, and the journey is an ordinary one. We don't follow it to sensationalise life but to see life  - every  aspect of it as well as its inner harmony and direction -as the mystery it is. The greatest  danger and temptation is to complicate. As far as I can see ,if we are actually on the journey - if the poverty of the mantra  (practice ) is the rich core of our lives - then we grow more and more simple.  Increasingly  we see the utter simplicity of the call  Jesus (  life ) addresses uniquely to each of us , to leave all things and self behind and follow him into the infinite freedom of his union with the  Father .
From,  John Main's  Silence and Stillness in every Season

Saturday, 17 November 2012

Zen Haiku for Autumn


                                    While they are away
                                    Leaves pile up
                                    In the garden of the gods.

                                    The mountain stream
                                    Milled the rice for me
                                    While I took a nap.

                                     Oh leaves, ask the wind which of you
                                     Will be the first to fall.

                                       Along this path
                                       Is none but I
                                       This autumn eve.


                                 Great Buddha
                                 Even while sleeping
                                 Gets flowers and gold.


Wednesday, 14 November 2012

The Reconnection

" The reconnection is a comprehensive spectrum of frequencies with the power to catalyze  spontaneous healings.  Embodying universal intelligence that surpasses technique and technology , these frequencies are accessible to those who encounter it , regardless of spiritual orientation or prior experience with healing "Eric Pearl

There are two aspects to the Reconnective work .
 Firstly there is the healing aspect. I will explain a little about  both aspects .

The first aspect .

A healing session
Following an introductory chat when the practitioner answers any questions the client may have, the client is invited  to lie down  on a massage table  (fully clothed ) and to close their eyes and allow themselves to relax (or not  )  ,  to just let themselves experience whatever comes as the practitioner does their work  .

 The practitioner then consciously connects to the frequencies and  ' draws ' them through the client body without touching the body. The practitioner works intuitively watching for registers in the clients body .  The session usually lasts about forty minutes . It is recommended that the client has three sessions fairly close together if they are dealing with some body issue.
It is not recommended that the healing become a weekly  'therapy ' session.

The second aspect of The Reconnection  concerns reconnecting the clients body .

" Originally the meridian lines ( sometimes called acupuncture lines ) were connected to the grid lines that encircle the planet and intersect at acknowledged power places such as Machu Pichu and Sedona. These lines continued out and connected us to a vastly larger grid , tying us to the entire universe. " Eric Pearl

When a practitioner  ' Reconnects ' a client they activate lines and points on the client's body , allowing for the exchange - beyond energy - of light and information , the reconnection of DNA strands and the reintegration of   "strings " ( simultaneous -or parallel -planes of existence  ) .
This "  reconnection " happens over two sessions each lasting between forty five to sixty minutes and must be completed within three days.

The healing aspect of the work is about bringing the clients body back into balance and allowing the frequencies to provide the " energy " needed by the person so this can happen.

The " Reconnection " is about the persons evolution. It is about taking the next  step in ones evolution and reconnecting to something beyond ones conscious mind. It is in my experience a gateway to a new life.
A new level of awareness and a continuously expanding understanding and appreciation of this life's experience.

Tuesday, 13 November 2012

Another walk with Suzie


               Today being soft and wet we decided to walk along the road.

First I was lost in the landscape.

Then as I watched Suzie I became aware that we were on two
very different walks . While mine was about the changing
 landscape , the softness of the air , the bird song. 

Suzie's was all about the scent.

This reminded me of a story in Oliver Sack's 'The Man who
 mistook  his wife for a hat.   The story is called
 " The dog beneath the skin " and concerns  a young medical student 
Stephen D, who after a night under the influence
 of amphetamines and cocaine wakes to find he has a greatly enhanced 
sense of smell. So much so that he recognises the patients on his
 wards by their scent .In fact the sense of smell completely takes over
 his attention and he is bombarded by all types of scent .
 He finds it difficult to focus on anything else because everywhere
  he turns there are scents drawing him in.
 (  Sacks would admit years later that Stephen D 
was in fact Sacks himself.   )

As I watched Suzie I wondered what my walk would be like
if we could swap perspectives for just one walk.

Monday, 12 November 2012

Celebrate good times !

facts about tai chi
I had been reflecting on how good my life feels at the moment .
Amongst other wonderful connections and reconnections I
noticed that my blog had reached  20,000 page views. Then this
 award arrived by email yesterday. So I feel it is time to celebrate
 this amazing year of reconnection.

I wonder at the series of  ' coincidences ' that have been happening
over the months since Elsa Reconnected me. And of the ' coincidences '
happening in the lives of my clients.  People whose writing block or
fears of  failing have dissolved or reduced to the point that they can
face the work and enjoy it and build their confidence  to face bigger
fears and live more fully.

It seems to me that Reconnection occurs on a very ' high ' frequency.
This frequency is higher than the body vibration , and even
  though its effects may be felt in the body  one doesn't need to feel
them for the frequencies to do their work. It may even be that
because the frequencies are at a higher vibration they often bring about
physical healing.

The work of these frequencies is to bring  light and intelligence to
this planet. To raise the vibration of everybody so we can all live
the free loving life we were born to experience.

Saturday, 10 November 2012

A gift from Crainosacral

Yesterday I received a craniosacral treatment, it was a gift , a thank you.

I had been looking forward to having the treatment all week so much
 so that I lay awake the night before full of excitement about the next
 day's adventure.

 As soon as Elma put her hands close to my feet I could feel the bubbly 
excited energy and she said " There is a lot of giddy energy here. "

 So I told her about my sleeplessness and excitement as  my energy
 calmed down beneath her touch.

 As the treatment progressed warm childhood
 memories flooded back into myawareness. There was the feeling of
 running in the woods  leaves rustling under foot.
 " Who is running  " she asked .
 "It's a small child having fun " I said.  " Who is the child "
 Elma asked . " Me , It's me looking out through those eyes. " 

Then , I was snuggled up on the kitchen settle next to
 my Grandfather, I could feel the heat from his body could smell his pipe,
could feel the texture of his jacket, tears came, soft and warm ,tears of love
and joy. Many more long forgotten memories were relived and a huge sense 
of the joy and fun of my early childhood was returned to my awareness.

What a gift and a blessing I am filled with gratitude.

Friday, 9 November 2012

A story about Lester Levenson's awakening to Love

Lester . . .
“Wait a minute!” he thought. “If happiness is when I’m experiencing love for the other one, then that means happiness is a feeling within me.
“And if I felt unloving in the past? Well, I know I can’t change the past, but could I possibly correct the feeling now inside myself? Could I change the feeling to love now?” He decided to try it. He looked at his most recent unhappiness, the day he left the hospital.
“First,” he asked himself, “was I experiencing a lack of love that day?”
“Yes,” he answered aloud. “Nobody gave a damn about me, not the nurses, not the orderlies, not even Dr. Schultz. They did not care. As sick as I was, they threw me out, sent me home to die so they wouldn’t have to watch one of their failures . . . well, the hell with them. They can all go to hell.” He was shocked at the vehemence in his voice. His body trembled with rage and he felt weak. He really hated the doctor: He could feel it burning in his chest. “Oh, boy,” he thought, “this sure isn’t love.”
“Well, can I change it?” he asked. “Is it possible to turn it into love for the doctor?”
“Hell, no,” he thought, “why should I? What did he ever do to deserve any love?”
“That’s not the point,” he answered himself. “The point is not whether he deserves love. The point is, can you do it? Is it possible to simply change a feeling of hatred into a feeling of love—not for the benefit of the other person but for yourself?”
As the thought crossed his mind, he felt something break loose in his chest. A gentle easing, a sense of dissolving, and the burning sensation was gone. He didn’t trust it at first. It seemed too easy, so he pictured again the scene with Dr. Schultz in the hospital. He was surprised to find that it brought only a mild feeling of resentment rather than the previous intense burning hatred. He wondered if he could do it again.
“Lets see,” he thought, “what did I just do? . . . Oh, yes. Can I change this feeling of resentment into a feeling of love?” He chuckled as he felt the resentment dissolve in his chest. Then it was totally gone and he was happy. He thought of Dr. Schultz again, pictured him in his mind and felt happy, even loving. He saw now, reliving that last meeting, how the doctor had hated to tell him the things he had to say. He could feel the doctor’s pain at having to tell a young man in the prime of his life that his life was over. “Dr. Schultz, you son-of-a-gun,” he said, grinning, “I love you.”
“Well, it worked on that one,” he thought. “If my theory is sound, then it should work on everything.” Eagerly, he began trying it on other moments, and the results were consistently the same. Each time that he asked himself if he could change the feeling of hostility or anger or hatred to one of love, the dissolving process took place. Sometimes he had to repeat it over and over until he felt only love for the person. At times, the entire process would take only a minute or two; at other times, it might take him hours of working on a particular person or event before his feelings were only loving, but he would doggedly stay with it until it was completed on each person and each incident.
His entire life came up for review in bits and pieces. One by one, he changed to love all the old hurts and disappointments. He began to feel stronger as the weight of his pain dropped away. He was happier than he had ever been in his entire life, and he kept it going, feeling even more happiness with each new thing corrected.

Thursday, 8 November 2012

Morning walk with Suzie

Off to the woods

Viewing delights along the way


and more

I'm waiting

just look up

and up

turning for home

heart singing

that was fun

let's  do it again .