According to Lester " Wanting is not having,  wanting brings up a feeling of lack. " Check this out for yourself. Think of something you really want but don't have. . . . . . . .

 See what I mean it brings up that sense of missing out or lacking inside.

When I first realized this I started to suppress my ' wanting ', thinking that pushing my wants down would help  - ostrich approach,  if I bury my wants  they will somehow go away. This didn't work and led to a lot of frustration until I listened again to Lester and understood how he worked. When I was ready I heard him say,
 " Can you allow yourself to want  'whatever it is ' as much as you do ? "
And
" Can you allow yourself to feel the SELF  that is already whole and complete that has no wants."

Repeat allowing up your wants and them becoming aware of the awareness that knows the wants and also knows what is beyond all wanting. That which is already beyond even completion.
Does this dissolve the wants ? Sometimes,  but what is even better the space created by the realization that one is already whole  and complete allows for the manifestation of our desires. It is as if when we stop thinking we have to have them they just begin showing up.
So what Lester is saying is let up your desires allow yourself to really feel them and also allow yourself to explore your true nature that has no desires because it is already whole. Come to realize that the external world can never complete what is already whole. Does this stop us enjoying the world ,  paradoxically we can enjoy it all the more when we realize that we don't need it to complete us.

" Whatever you pay attention to grows . "  With this in mind I have decided to pay attention to LOVE.
 Lester Levinson's teachings are a great inspiration and help in this endeavour.
Here are some of the polarities he suggests we work with :

I want to be loved - I allow myself to love..

I need love  - I  am love.

Could I allow myself to hate  ( any person,  place , or thing ) as much as I do ?
Could I allow myself to love  ( any person, place, or thing  ) as much as I do ?

Working with these polarities I find myself becoming more open and loving.
Try it for yourself  right now think of someone place or thing that  you  dislike.
Pick something that's not too big to begin with. Now allow yourself to let up the
dislike feelings as much as you can.  Ok ?

Now allow yourself to let up the loving feelings as much as you can.

Review, do you still dislike the the person place or thing as much as before ?

Many find that the dislike has diminished or disappeared  by just doing this once.
However repeat as many times as necessary to dissolve the non love feelings.

I hope you find this exercise  as beneficial and freeing as I do.

 

                     And Joy is Everywhere;

                     It is in the Earth’s green covering of grass;

                     In the blue serenity of the Sky;

                     In the reckless exuberance of Spring;

                     In the severe abstinence of gray Winter;

                     In the Living flesh that animates our bodily frame;

                     In the perfect poise of the Human figure, noble and upright;

                     In Living;

                     In the exercise of all our powers;

                     In the acquisition of Knowledge;

                     in fighting evil:
                    Joy is there Everywhere.

                                    - Rabindranath Tagore

   

Here is the video of the Tai  Chi  warm ups once you watch this one the others  will pop up and you can access them there on vimeo. Im  posting the mini form postures here again for the beginners classes.

I think that we are all  ' beings of light ' , however our light is mostly obscured from view, hidden under layers of fear and defence. We need and intuitively search for ways to clear these obstructions, if we are lucky we find people and practices that help us to recognise and heal ourselves of these blocks to the internal light. The    practice of Tai Chi is one method of working on ourselves , it is amazing to see how much people 'brighten' even during a class.
 There is something in the way that Tai Chi circulates in the body that really activates the internal light. I have observed this over and over, people come to the class looking tired and grey and as we practice together their skin tone changes and brightens , they begin to glow.That internal light begins to shine again.  Then all one needs to do is keep up the practice and bit by bit the blocks  crumble. More light  shines both from the outside in and from the inside out.
 While I  watch people as they practice I can 'see ' and ' feel' the movement of the ' light ' in and around their bodies. How and when this began to happen I have no idea but it is clear and beautiful to watch. As people progress the pathways become clearer and smoother and more and more beautiful to watch.
I now wonder if these are the same paths used by the  ' Reonnectivec  ' frequencies as they move through and heal our bodies.

Somewhere we know that without silence words lose their meaning, that without listening speaking no longer heals, that without distance closeness cannot cure.

- Henri Nouwen 

                                   I would describe myselt
                                   like a landscape I've studied
                                   at length, in detail ;
                                   like a word I'm coming to understand ;
                                   like a pitcher I pour from at mealtime ;
                                   like my mother's face ;
                                   like a ship that carried me
                                   when the waters raged.
                                                            -Rikle